In all of that I added a few more rows to my first pair of socks with the sock wool that I was gifted from my beautiful family for Christmas and finished off a Fungi Friend for our Forest Friend Collection I have started on for Danika.
It has been a wonderful, tearful, exhilarating and soul searching week to say the least. There have been emotions felt that I never thought that I had. We had to come to a decision this week, being the first week of the month and as my maternity period is so rapidly coming to end. Over the past few months there have been emotional conversations as to whether we could manage our home with one proper income or not. In a perfect world I would be home raising our children, tending our garden, feeding our chickens, knitting up a storm and adding homemade goodies to our homestall. But, in all reality, its not that perfect. It would not be fair to add such a burden to my soul partner to carry alone. So, I will pick myself off from the self pitiful fetal position on the floor that I have found myself in a few times over the last few months and dust myself off and really partner up with my life partner so we can do this all together. I can still raise my children, tend my garden, feed my chickens, knit up a few more rows here and there and add a couple of homemade goodies to the homestall just not all of the time. I will be contributing a little extra by going back to a day job away from the home and aiding Rob with the finance that is needed to keep a home with 4 Adults, 3 boy children, a little baby girl, dogs, chickens and a tortoise., oh and lets not forget about the gang of monkeys! I’ve come to the realisation that it just as important if not more important to provide this way for my tribe. Although secretly I wish it wasn’t.
It will be more REAL.
So while I mull through all this and try an ease my way into a new routine of expressed milk and leaky engorged breasts and the emotions that come with that and setting up play dates for a new member to our tribe ( I will share all about that soon) and welcome our eldest home for a little longer and get Joshua and Garren ready for their first day back at school…. the list does go on a little longer… I will count my blessings and know that in the end I will do anything to make our home work and my tribe happy and healthy.
Until, next week my special yarn friends… Blessings a plenty from my heart to yours.